HOMeY…..BLoG…..SPoT….

mathematically
loving someone is not as easy as simple algebra.  you have to love
infinitely without limits.  but learning to let go someone you love is
harder.  because the cure cannot be derived and simply does not exist.

it’s
funny how sometimes you’ve been doing everything to get out of one
place and when you’ve found the time to leave, it’s when you’ve also
found a reason to stay.

love and friendship met one day.  love
asked, "why do you exist?"  friendship answered, "to put a smile where
you leave tears."  then love asked again, "well, if that’s what you do,
how come there are still many people crying?"  friendship said, "it’’s
my fault.  instead of doing my job, i sometimes end up doing yours."

never
say that someone completes you. we have to feel whole even when we are
by ourselves, for needing a certain someone is not love but
dependency.  wanting a person to become part of your life is the best
reason for having them.  and you can only want when you know you have
enough.  so rather than search for someone who will complete you, wait
for the person who will complement your completeness.

it’s quite
ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the
one that makes you strong is actually your weakness..

when
something’s over, it’s over.  it can never start again. when it’s
broken you can never put back the pieces.  life is not the way you want
it to be.  when you that someone’s hurting you so much, just stop. we
know that it hurts a lot, but you must learn to let go things.  don’t
push yourself too hard.  coz we all know, that in every ending, there’s
such a thing that we call the beginning..

sometimes, fate has a
cruel way of putting things together.  maybe it’s better if people just
give up when there’s no point in fighting for something anymore.  when
the ship has finally sailed, only a fool would go after when it’s
already miles away.  but sometimes, it’s a lot better to be a fool to
go after what we want and need, rather than to regret everything in the
end because we never even tried..

In that time i felt like i understood where all those things like
"eternity", "the heart" and "the soul". I felt like Id shared every
tiny detail of my 22years of life on this planet with her. And then in
the next moment i felt an unbearable sadness her warmth and soul.
how should i treasure them and where i should take them?..
It
was because i didnt know. I understood that we could not stay together
forever. There was still the vastness of our live before us that
endless expanse of time which was inexorably ahead of us.

Suddenly…

the
worries which had seized me melted away slowly. All that was left was
her soft lipss… Wrapped in an old blanket we talked for the longest
time and with out realizing it we fell asleep. I felt like everything
in the world had change.
I believed whole heartedly that all i
needed was the strength to protect her. Thinking only that I started at
the landscape beyond the window.

Absolutely. One of the reasons that pelople are so frustrated with their lives is becasue so many have given up on their dreams for the sake of something, or someone that seemed more important, or more tangible at the time. This susually stems from not having an opportuinty to truly pursue those dreams. Usually there is a lack of money, or a lack of support from friends and family that lead people to abandon their dreams.

How different would the world have been if Hitler had fully pursued his dreams of being a painter? Or if Fidel Castro had followed his dream of being a Baseball player? Or if Charles Manson or David Koresh had become musicians? Sometimes making the world a better place could be nothing more than someone NOT becoming a despot, or a fanatic. Sometimes making the world better means that someone becomes a great leader like Martin Luther King Jr. Or someone helping others like Mother Theresa. Or someone teaching music, or art. What ever those dreams are, the MUST be followed, after all, the only way to know how things will end is to follow the road and get there.

Closing month, december..

2006 is been good and bad, i learn a lot in life this year.
i learn to be close to my faith without questioning my religion.
i learn the difference of culture but difference can never be an excuse for war.
i learn to help others without gold, cuz i know luck will reward me.
i learn love can make you do things beyond the limit of your strength.
i learn how to smile for sad and deppresing times, though it hurts but
i dont want to let other see the pain im suffering cuz i dont want them
to sympathize my sadness. atleast im supporting operation smile hehee..
thats good enough..
i learn in life u can choose between failure and successes from the minute u make a your path.
i learn giving up love and figthing it back, even though i know i will
fail again,.. but its ok at least im still walking, and i will keep on
walking until i will know the meaning of my existents in life.

i made two songs but i still cant figure out the rhythm

here is is

Heart of Sorrow

How can i get her heart
shes the girl that i dream evry night
I feel so light everytime Im with her
but i know she just see me as a monument

(Chorus:)
Ill do everything you said
Ill do everything you ask for
even if it means to offer my soul
(insert in 2nd Chorus:)
all i ever want is for you to love me

How will she ever notice my affection
Does she notice how my actions change if shes around
And I know this love for you will forever stain in my heart
And If only I have the right time, And If only I have
everything to give even if its dying just to be with you <–long note

(Repeat 2nd Chorus with insert then "The ENd")

2nd song Medyo melo emo alternative style (para mas maka feel mo sa song ee slide show ako mga pics sa landscape and emotive sa multiply para maka sabot mo hehee )

Kiss me just in Case..

Lyrics by: Homey

Mactan Bridge is falling down
But you, my girl, are nowhere to be found
The sky is clear, the air is crisp
But something is amiss
Am I really alone again?

The candles burning bright
Its about midnight in guadalupe
Im thinking of you, thinking of me
And I just cant believe
How much I need you now (mid-high pitch, pero try mix w/ calm consistent tone)

Chorus:
You are my saving grace
And I know that you wanted it to be this way
Girl youre the only one who can live at my pace
So turn your head this way so that I can kiss your pretty face
Turn around your head this way so that I can kiss your angel face
Im pretty sure Ill live to see tomorrow, but kiss me just in case
I got no plans to skip town tomorrow
But kiss me
Kiss me
Just in case

Midnight Kiev to the Mountain
On a night-ride journey thats a memory now
At the end of the tracks wait my arms,
And my lips, and my eyes, and my nose, and my charm
Twelve countries divide us, the critics despise us, romantics adore it,
The skeptics deplore it
Lyubov, Amore its me
It exists, yes it does, come and see

Repeat Chorus

End part (low note )

Kiss me….
Kiss me…
Kiss me..
Just in case.
Kiss me…
Just in case……

oohh yeah.. can anyone tell me the opposite of "ripe" aside from "un-ripe"…

Wrecking Hotel Rooms Lyrics -MXPX

I wrecked your hotel room
I crashed up the car
Slept in the gutter
I’m outside your door

Saw you through the key hole
Down on your knees
There’s really no reason to call the police

Do you hold the phone when you’re alone
Imagine that it rings then hold it to your ear
And wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep
Be with you in your dreams for the days I will be gone
I’ll be there in your dreams and in this song

I know you don’t know me
‘Cause we’ve never met
I’m not really crazy
So don’t get upset

I’ve got all these problems
None with solutions
Been in and out of some nice institutions

Do you hold the phone when you’re alone
Imagine that it rings then hold it to your ear
And wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep
Be with you in your dreams for the days I will be gone
I’ll be there in your dreams and in this song
I’ll be there in your dreams and in this song

Do you hold the phone when you’re alone
Imagine that it rings then hold it to your ear
And wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep
Be with you in your dreams for the days I will be gone
I’ll be there in your dreams and in this song
I’ll be there in your dreams and in this song
I’ll be there in your dreams and in this song
I’ll be there in your dreams and in this song
I’ll be there in your dreams and in this song

I’m again standing here alone thinking of you.
What is it like being with you right now?
Oh how I wish things were like before….

I saw you in the mall, I stared at you
And at that moment, And I feel like our time stop, But this time its not a dream because I can feel
My heart is beating faster for you…

The weeks pass by I still can’t stop thinking
Of you, if only I got the balls to meet you at that time,
I know we could probably hang out by now.

But luck came, I didn’t find you instead you found me.
We introduce our selves at the arcade.
And at that moment I wanted to be friends with you forever
I hope we will… forever…

But reality came and dreams went away.
I got to know you better, and I showed you
Who I am, I loved you for what you are but
You never love your self.

I can see and feel your confuse and lost but I don’t want you
To be sad and lonely all the time, because I know what it’s like
All I want for you is to be happy
And at least I can protect that smile for the very last
Night of my Dream,…

We talk and share things until I told you how I feel
But you rejected me and so I understand
I don’t own you so I can’t hold you all the time
It’s your life, not mine, still I care for you.

But things will never be the same..
Because you’ve change for the picture that I used to see in the frame
I guess the girl that I want to be is just the fantasy of my heart…

Orig ni bai… From the heart pa gyud.. dont forget to listen more emo songs in www.purevolume.com

Twisted, Damage, broken beyond repair
Ragged, stained, thrown into despair
All because of you…

You came into my life
So sudden, so unexpectedly
It felt so good
To have found my other half

Things were great
My life was perfect
I thought I’d had it made

The HE came along
Once again
The One- that had hurt you so badly before
And changed everything

The fear, the jealousy, the RAGE
Sick, cold, untiring
It was cruel…what you did
But it wasn’t entirely your fault
He manipulated you into doing what he wanted
He made you rip out my heart and spin it like a yo-yo
I’m not a toy, and I REFUSE to play this game

I had all I could do to restrain myself
To contain the monster inside, tearing and clawing to get out
Out of the cold dark world your absence has banished me to

You were the greatest thing that ever happened to me
And yet, it hurt me so badly
You tore out my very soul, and showed it to me

The depression, the agony

You’re beautiful, yet deadly

When you were near, I felt so light, so different
When you touched me, I never wanted to let you go
And when you kissed me, you had me. I belonged to you.

I never thought it was possible
This pain was unlike any other I’ve ever felt

Now here I lay, on the floor, behind a closed door
I can’t hear, I can’t see
I can’t taste, I can’t smell
I feel nothing

Wrenched from this world

I wish I could crawl under my bed and die…

Buzz. I hear a sudden Buzz in YM
It’s you. Your words sound so sad
I care, and at the same time, I don’t
I still feel horrible. Sick and twisted

We talk for so long, it feels like eternity
We come to an agreement…we’re going to try again
The depression subsides a little

I’ll forgive you eventually, but it will take a while
To trust you as I did before, will take a while too

So ready, so willing
I have to try again…WE have to try again

The wave of emotion is overwhelming
My mind races with thoughts of you, of us
Who knows what the future will throw at us?

But maybe this is a test. A test of how strong our relationship is

Blackness. I turn out the light, and lay down
My thouhgts flash through my mind

I long to hold you, to touch you, to kiss you
I want to feel your touch, the comfort of your presence
The feeling of your arms around me
Just the two of us
You & I

It’s so exhausting…these thoughts
There’s so many
And then, it all stops spinning
It becomes so quiet, so peaceful
I wish you were here, to be beside me
Things will get better, I know this much

I know it will get brighter

As hard as it may be, I will love you once again
these waves of emotion, these millions of thoughts
they are of you, for you…all because of you

End..

don’t forget to listen "NATURE LIVING" and "UVERWORLD" for more motivation!!!

Ur

just a Dream

I’ve felt sadness, I’ve felt betrayed, I’ve felt rejection,
and I’ve felt pain that I can not describe in words nor I could cry it out Cuz’ there’s no tears in my eye’s except cold blood running in through to my cheek.

Some times I can never stop loving you cuz’ you’re the girl
in my dreams, but dreams can never collide w/ reality, believing dreams can
only hurt me but living in reality can only cuz’ more suffering and loneliness. So which one I
should choose….

I’m not sure if you’re telling me this things called love in
your heart cuz’ you never show me the real you so how can I love you more if your
just faking your feelings towards me, I also know your just using me as your
past times companion, but I already accept it, even thou I feel like a fool
being with you, expecting a future but I know it will never happen cuz’ your
just a dream to me now. To be continue….

Emo time!!! UVERworld.mp3 ßlook for this in the
net

Payter by: Dr. Homey™

The World is round pero a lot of people dont even realize that there walking virtical/horizon or when they take a bath, how come our own "Tiil" is naka pilit sa floor, how come when we take a bath the water goes down instead up? ??? <?> why? why? why?

They said its the the attraction due to gravitation that the Earth or another astronomical object exerts on an object on or near its surface, say what!?..

ya but still the world is to small for as to hold on to this gravity, wat if one morning we wakeup and notice that our vission to the world is different from yesterday, just like our birds,what if they are not anymore capable of flight towards the sky instead towards heaven, what if being HIGH is really our true vission?

How will u know, how will u understand, how will u face it, So whats reality beyond reality, is there anyone out there who also see this vission? if so pls.. share ur comments…. who knows u might win an ipod nano…